auburndesperado

Questions go without answers Night pass, but aren't pacified Hearts come apart at the seam Stitched together with false hope. Give me your final answer Show a moment of resolve And try to make it work this time. If it won't break, show a little spine. Set aside your scanty retributions Create a cast-iron solution Add in wavering convictions Mix in your heart's contradictions Scrap your simple remedies Those that leave us on our knees Begging for relief From this familiar grief So blend it well and drink it down. Read your mind and figure yourself out.

Memory is such a terrifying place to visit.  Such a haunting, sinister scene. Follow the narrow dirt road through the darkness, away from all light, all happiness, past regret, past shame and guilt, until a dim mist sets in around you, obscuring sight except for the shady trees towering overhead.  They're so menacing, so cold.  The path stops suddenly as a creaky old gate swings open, moaning in age old grief, the kind that won't be eased.  Inviting you in.  Dragging you in.  Spinning your mind back to things you'd rather not see. Things you'd rather not bring back. Stay on the murky forest path as you draw near an ancient cottage, ominousl

They say eyes are the window to the soul, But yours are like doors, Thrown wide open, inviting me in. Drawing me in. I can't stop this gaze, can't control my eyes As they grow wide with amazement Grow soft with affection And I'm melting into you, Oblivious to everything that has kept me back before For once, I'm not holding back I'm not afraid, As long as I have your eyes to guide me And to lose me in.

Don't smile that smile. You know I can't stop one from beaming back. Don't touch me. Spontaneous shivers run down my spine, Just thinking about your caress. These feelings are futile, Why are you even trying? I can hear your heart pounding as you draw closer, Screaming in yearning and protest, Nearly deafening in its turmoil, I know why it cries in frustration. Don't you wish you could break your heart in two? Give a bleeding half to each? But how could I ask you to break your heart When it's already splitting? Three tortured, entwined hearts, Impossible to untangle them without sorrow.

Watching her leave again as I gaze out at her. See her face split into a chasm of delight. But as the smile opens across her face It depicts a valley of malice, a gorge of rancor. I hate her. Loathing coupled with horrible and sudden guilt Has an unpleasant reaction, Like a chemistry experiment gone awry. Ugly browns swirl Poisonous fumes rise to tear up my eyes The telltale drops spill over. Spoiling my perfect finish of a happy sister. Running in great splotches of pain As the tears pour out. Wrap my arms around my knees and hug them tight Try to hold onto something solid Clutch something real. Why did she do this to u